"i got no strings to hold me up..."

i was reading the bible yesterday over my lonely dinner at shakas (the honu pepper chicken is really good by the way). sonia was out with the girls so i was left to fend for myself. so i sat all by myself at shakas and read. turned out to be a good thing...

by the way, where do people in ALH go to hang out? i was hoping to meet some new people and have conversations with total strangers...but i couldn't find any to talk to. at least people that i wanted to have a conversation with. just curious...

anyways, i was reading hebrews chapter 8. college guys/girls, you can ditch this post if you want to read it for the first time on thursday, i think this is where we left off.

hebrews 8:7-13 blew me away. i know i had read this before. i have read hebrews many times. but this time, it stopped me in my tracks. i swear, it was unreal. i had to stare into my hono pepper chicken so that my waitress (melinda...tip her well if you ever have her, she's cool) wouldn't see the tears in my eyes.

there was nothing wrong with the Law per se. instead god found fault with the people. this was the reason for the new covenant, not that the old covenant should never have been.

"i will put my laws in their minds and write them on their hearts. i will be their god and they will be my people."

amazing... god has written the law on MY heart and in MY mind.

my imagination saw a scene kinda like gepetto and pinocchio, where i am sitting lifeless on a work bench and the creator of all things is carefully putting the law onto my heart. i can see the intention behind it. i can see his eyes well up knowing that he is giving me the single greatest thing he could. i can see his hopeful eyes that know that i will find my way, and that know that i will no longer struggle under the bondage of the Law.

it's like after that, i had no strings. i didn't need them anymore, because everything i needed was already in me. in my mind, and on my heart. we danced and sang together.

god didn't screw up with the Law. i screwed it up.

i didn't choose to fix it. god did.

i didn't choose to have these things written on my heart and in my mind. he chose to complete me.

i have a strange sense of peace and awe right now. like i can do no wrong, like i KNOW that i have everything i need already in me to "do good, seek justice, defend the orphans, and take care of the widows" (shout out to the oikos heads that know where that came from).

trip...